Ladies and Gentlemen for you viewing pleasure high above us is the Daring and Darling Kristi. Let’s watch as she crosses the 2 inch wide tight rope of pregnancy. If she falls it will be sadness, anger, hurt and loss. Standing at the other end of the rope is her reward a bouncy baby. Wait…..to make it even more difficult we are going to shoot darts at her in attempt to get across.
Yep I am still on the tight rope. Yesterday’s US at 7 weeks 3 days showed a yolk sac, fetal pole and an HCG of 90,000+. But no heartbeat….
The consult ended the same as last week. This isn’t good and you will miscarry soon. My 2 Doc’s aren’t ready to call it quits yet so I am heading back next week for another US. Dr Chang said “I’m sorry it just doesn’t look good we should be seeing cardiac activity by now. This usually means there is a chromosomal defect.”
By the grace of god I am remaining calm for the final call. I had many melt downs last week and felt the sting of loss. Sunday after spending a lot of time in prayer I started to feel my peace settle in. Now if I do miscarry I am sure the sadness will come back and bitch slap me in the face. But this time I will be prepared.
Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. This community is amazing and I am so blessed to have found this group.