Ladies and Gentlemen, we are coming to the end of the ride. Keep your arms and legs inside the car until we’ve made a complete stop. Oh man that was a wicked ride, I got a little sick, have a headache, cried tears of sadness and screamed for joy.
The heart has stopped and the time has come to schedule the D&C. I am heading to MN tonight for a wedding and really hope the bleeding doesn’t start while I am at the wedding. That would succcckkkkkkk! My Dr doesn’t think it will since I haven’t started spotting yet so I just need to make it till Monday for the D&C. My mind, heart and body just can’t take a natural miscarriage if I don’t have to.
To my little miracle,
You defied the odds right from the start. Dr Chang only gave you a 10% chance of growing and you did. At 6 weeks I was told you weren’t there but you were. At 7 weeks I was told you didn’t have a heartbeat but you did. Man you are a little fighter and I love you for it. I am at peace knowing you are resting with god and my loved ones. They will take great care of you until it’s really your turn to be my child. I am sorry your cells weren’t healthy enough I will work on that for next time.
Thank you for giving me 3 more weeks to be your mom. You were and will be loved and missed. Those 3 weeks reminded me how much I want to be a mom. I will keep fighting to make that dream a reality. Love, Mommy