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So I tested on Wednesday, 9/29 which was 9dp3dt and it was a BFN. I waited for Mark to leave the house then I had a HUGE emotional breakdown. I know it was early but still it was negative and all my hurt just came out. I screamed in the shower asking god, why. I bawled, bawled some more then pulled myself together for work. I am comfortable in my relationship with god that I know it’s ok to get angry as long as I don’t stay angry.
Thursday, 9/30 I started spotting light pink, pink then by nighttime I spotted red when I wiped. I had minor cramps so I just prayed it was implantation (This happened last time). I couldn’t sleep at all, was burning up, and just tossed and turned. I was up at 12am peed, saw red. Got up at 3am and decided to take a HPT again within a couple minutes got a BFP, faint but still a BFP.
Friday, 10/1 I got up at 6:30am and showed Mark the test. He said “So we still have a chance? I though Dr C said not to test at home.” Umm yes but you know I can’t do that so now I am paying the piper. He gave me a big kiss and said “Ok we aren’t telling anyone until its safe.” I agreed except for you folks, shhhh told tell. Anyway I got to work and started feeling flow and went to the bathroom, more red spotting but only when I wipe. I decide to take my glutton for punishment self to Walgreens and get more First Reponse tests. While walking to Walgreens 2 blocks I felt lots of flow. Got back to work and had soaked my liner with muted red. I tested again at 11am and got a very very faint positive. Now I realize I tested after going to the bathroom 3 times in less then 5 hours. The flow has slowed, my legs are resting under my desk and now I just pray it’s not a chemical. Dr C is adding progesterone in oil to my endometrin and estrace today.
4 more days till beta