We had our 38 week appointment today and we are inching closer to pumpkins arrival. I actually lost 2 pounds, not sure how that happened but it did. I was concerned that she had stopped growing but the doc said nope she is bigger then last week. So I guess she is just using my excess fat which is fine with me that’s less to lose when she gets here. I haven’t had much appetite there’s not a lot of space to put food. I eat because I have to but I am sneaking in a shake everyday to give her some fat.
I am 1.5 centimeters dilated and 70% effaced, I have also lost my mucus plug so now we just wait for the contracts to starts. Her head is farther down to so hopefully that means I can do a vaginal delivery. But for those that have crossed over you know things can change on a dime.
I am not fearing labor but I am getting more anxious about my life changes. I guess it’s up to me how much I give up. Lunches with friends, riding, getting out of the house. Knowing myself I will be out and about soon. I am not one to sit inside and watch tv. When the doctor gives me the thumbs up pumpkin and I will be going places.
Marks co-workers are finally throwing a baby shower on June 7th, yes that’s 5 days before her due date but better late than never I guess. It’s very nice of them it just would be have been nice if it had been a month ago.
So maybe by next weeks update I will have baby pictures to share and a birth story.
I had a doctors appointment yesterday. Things are going well, I still love hearing her heartbeat. I weighed in at 146lbs which is 4lbs away from my goal of 25 pounds. My doctor is happy with it and says pumpkin is roughly 6-6.5 lbs now. I’m not sure how they can tell but whatever. There is some progress with my cervix but Doc is confident it won’t be this week. I have 25 days to go and can’t wait to meet her. Mark and I can feel her legs getting stronger. He’s thinking she will be the next soccer star.
Her room is ready except for some shelves but Mark promises to have them up soon. He is also planning on painting our hallways this weekend. So the painting should be complete in a week or 2. We still need to install the carseat bases and have them inspected. Perhaps this weekend. Attached is my latest belly shot.
I start maternity leave on Tuesday May 31st. So my last day for 3 months will be next Friday. They are throwing a Farewell to Kristi party next Thursday. I am so touched by my companies support. It’s made this whole process much easier. I will come back Tuesday September 6 then I will decide whether to be a full time mom or work.
I am working on a post regarding crossing the bridge of infertility. I hope it will encourage those still fighting. It might be best to finish it when she gets her so I can truly speak from the heart.
Here it is my week 33 update.
I had a good appointment today with pumpkin measuring 22 on the fundal height scale. I have gained 17 pounds so I am up to 142. Yep I started out at 125 after 3 IVF’s and a miscarriage. My goal is still 25 pound weight gain so we shall see. Her heart sounded perfect and her head is down. Doc says it should stay down from now on. Pumpkin is developing a pattern of activity in the afternoons and evenings. Then rests from say 11pm to mid afternoon. Wouldn’t that be nice if she slept through the night within weeks of her arrival.
Don’t read if you hate TMI. Bad news…I have a hem.roid, yuck. It’s not hurting or bothering me it’s just gross and I want it to go away. Well according to Doc it will never go away. Once that vein pops out it’s out for good. Now it can shrink but will never completely go away. Man I joked with one of my BFF’s a couple years ago that I would hate getting them. Well jokes on me but I will take it for a healthy pumpkin.
I also made an unscheduled stop at a daycare near our house this morning. I’ve been told it’s best to just stop in so you can see the facility in all it’s glory. This center is supposed to be the best in our county and has a great reputation. It’s also expensive at $275 a week for infants. I did like the facility though and the babies seemed healthy and happy. They have a care giver for every 2 babies. You don’t have to sign a contract in case you want to pull the child out. They do require you to give them 2 weeks notice if your leaving. That will be perfect if I decide to be a SAHM right after my leave is up.
We have our 1st birthing class this weekend. So it should be a great learning experience.
Earlier today I was reading through the list on Lost and Found Connections Abound. I check this list every time Mel updates it. I enjoy reading the BFP posts, arrivals, celebrations, and know my spirit needs to pray, mourn; grieve for those that don’t have such positive news. It felt so good to have that support while going through my IVF’s and miscarriage. It’s also a weekly reminder to thank god for every kick, punch, roll, etc. I am thankful for hearing her heartbeat with my Doppler. (Yes I still check on her)
I am honored and humbled at the gift god has bestowed upon me. I thank him every day for keeping her safe and growing. I thank him for the movement and even the back pain. My back hurts everyday but I don’t want to complain or discredit why I have back pain. I read these stories of loss whether it’s early, mid term or still birth and they all break my heart. I wish I could take away their pain and loss. I don’t have the power to do that but I can be grateful everyday for my pumpkin.
If you’re reading this and you have lost a pumpkin, I am so sorry. I pray your dreams come true someday soon.
To my pumpkin I will continue to thank god for you. I won’t ever take your life and how amazing it is for granted. You were chosen to be my daughter and I am so blessed. I will spend my life caring for and loving you.
How far along: 28 weeks, 1 day
Total Weight Gain: 13 lbs
Symptoms: Continued back ache, lying down is my friend.
Stretch Marks: Fortunately I was wrong last time and no stretch marks at this time. Maybe it will be my consolation prize for 4 years of infertility. I also drink tons of water which I read helps.
Sleep: Back to a normal 8 hours a night and I am sleeping like a baby. My dreams are getting pretty good except for last night where I dreamt Mark was cheating on me.
Best Moment Last Week: Seeing her kick so hard it caused my dress to move. Mark saw it and said “Oh man we have a live one in there.”
Movement: I feel her a few times a day. It feels like she’s kicking my butt which is weird.
Food Cravings: The last couple weeks I have craved lemonade or unsweet ice tea. I love it and could drink jugs of it.
What I Miss: I had been taken a zumba class for a couple years before IVF #3 but have had to stop. I miss dancing and shaking my groove thing. I tried water zumba but it’s just not the same. This one won’t change, every time I am out with Roy I want to get on and go for a ride. I’ve been riding for 30 years at almost 4 days a week. So I miss it a TON! I am already planning my 1st ride even if it’s a short one.
What am I looking forward to: My long weekend trip to Minnesota to visit my family in April. I won’t be heading back for many months. Fortunately they are coming to visit this summer when pumpkin gets here.
Milestones: 3rd trimester OMG I made it. If she were born today she would have a 95% chance of survival. Of course we don’t want that but it’s a comforting fact.
How is Daddy? He is good but has been traveling way too much for my liking. He took his annual Vegas guys trip this past week. Generally his travel is for work which lately has been a lot. We sat down a couple weekends ago and I said “You know you can’t travel like this when she gets here? We need you to cut back on the travel and stay home more.” He said “I’m working on that I am trying to mitigate the work trips come June as much as possible.” So we will see….
Sorry for the color we used my cell phone camera.
Last night I was watching an episode of One Born ***** Minute. I have been watching this to help prepare me for the birth of my pumpkin. After seeing 5 episodes of this I have come to realize I more prepared for labor thanks to IVF. Why? Because of the comments I have heard from woman in labor.
I hate needles they scare me. Umm not me I injected my self with needles multiple times a day not to mention the IV’s, or blood draws.
I can’t have a c-section I’ve never being put under its dangerous. Yes c-sections scare me but not because of going under but because of recovery. Plus you’re not going under your being numbed from the chest down. I’ve been sent to la la land at least 3 times now it’s quite peaceful.
These contractions hurt so bad, I’ve never had menstrual cramps this hurts really bad. Girl what if you had endometriosis. Those cramps suck you feel like your going to die at any moment. I’ve been doubled over crying on the floor they hurt so bad.
Don’t look down there it’s gross I only want the doctor to look. Really try laying in a room with your goods all hanging out for a roomful of people to stare at. I’ve had more people look at my goods then I can count.
Drugs I can’t do drugs they are harmful to me and the baby. I call that happy juice, give it to me. I am confident pumpkin is still going to love me once the happy juice kicks in.
So you see in a way I am thankful for IVF. It prepared me to tackle one of the hardest few hours of my life in 94 days.
Mark and I are back from our babymoon to Puerto Vallarta. We joined my dad and step mom for 7 days in the sun. My dad and Mark get along pretty good and they both love to play golf. Which gave my step mom and I time to rest, read books, and sun bathe.
- Mark upgrading me to 1st class for the flight to PVR. I loved getting treated like a princess for 4 hours.
- Warm weather, tons of pools, poolside service.
- Whale watching, we followed a momma and calf while sailing on a chartered sailboat.
- Reading “The Help”, it’s a really good book and I couldn’t put it down.
- Spending time with Mark, my dad and step mom
- No drinking, I had to watch others enjoy there cervezas, Spanish coffees, margaritas.
- Looking like a beached whale next to the beautiful blond model we met.
That’s it, it was a great vacation and we had a great time.
Now onto the final countdown. I won’t be traveling for a few months but welcome the reason.
My step mom, unknowingly snapped a photo of me laying on the beach chair. I think I was trying to get flies.